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swallowed whole (demos and sounds 2017​-​2019)

by Star Student

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iwannabeold u sound really cool Favorite track: heavenly angel bees - come and find me [cover 2019].
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i don't know if i can go on like this i think i'll just stay in my room all pissed i don't feel why i wake up i know i'll never be enough that's okay i'll just wait until i die look up at the sky just to ask why i don't get an answer that's predictable but i think i'm just so fucking miserable fucking miserable
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all my friends are out back just smoking weed theyre all having fun ive forgotten what that means i wish i could feel young again back before my psyche was so broken what was it that made me feel like i need you (i dont need you) was it the pressure or just depression (i dont need) what was it that made you want to take your life dont take your life i stood in the tub tried to make my blood fill it up but the pain was too great i dont want to think of your face/the pain of seeing your face i dont want to watch you kill yourself i dont want to watch you kill yourself i dont want to watch you kill yourself i dont want to watch you kill yourself but im out of options what did you think would happen that wed be fine i wouldnt want to die what did you think would happen that wed be fine and that you wouldnt die im out of options im out of fucking options im out of options im out of options
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text us back dan
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and i dont know whats left of the person i used to be but lately i feel like everythings foggy thats the last that we'll speak of this thats the last time that we kissed and i dont know why i compared who i am now to who i used to be its just pain its just pain and im never gonna eat again im never gonna live again im never gonna love again im never sleeping in again im never gonna try again im never gonna be a better friend im just gonna fade away see where it takes me see how long i last see where it takes me because i hold on to the past see where it takes me see how long i last see where it takes me itll be a fucking blast
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i dont care what you want im gonna talk about how i feel for once i cant keep suffering each day its driving me oh its driving me insane you tell me that youre leaving you say theyre shipping you off somewhere you convey through clouded eyes and a blank stare that there's nothing left in there well im sick of this im sick of endlessness i wanna go back to the time that i told you ignorance is greater than bliss
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talk to me like you love me talk to me like you want the best for me talk to me like you understadn what i mean have faith in me tell me everything will be fine that i wont die ill feel better when i fade away when i fade away until i get the courage to kill myself i will remain an unread book on the shelf until i get the courage to kill myself i will remain stuck in my own hell whats wrong with me whats wrong with me
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nothing all that special just another day to get in the way of everyone that i love im not from above just another waste of space
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remember that time we listened to teen suicide in my bedroom i held you so close and you got so high we talked about how all of our best plans would fall through and i dont know what itll take to get through to you but thats the hardest part is learning where the mind starts and the heart stops thats the hardest part and its tearing me apart apart apart apart im faceless
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birds [2018] 02:02
im still stranded and im still weak i feel so abandoned by you since last week we shared our thoughts theres nothing left to say we shared our thoughts so we'll sit in pain we shared our thoughts theres nothing left to say we shared our thoughts dont really wanna fight might just say i love you goodnight i let the birds eat me alive i let the birds eat me alive i let the birds eat me alive
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i love you hector
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toxic [2018] 01:32
you call me toxic but its all in your head you call me toxic thats why we're not friends you call me toxic you say i make you nauseous i distance myself because im afraid of everyone that i love will it make me go insane i cant handle waking up each day even if the pain is just existing in my brain im sorry to everyone i dragged into this im sorry to my family theyre gonna be pissed
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N₂ [2019] 01:31
liquid nitrogen maybe
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about

i've been starving myself lately
unsure of what the goal is
i think i just want to feel something
i am distracting myself from the possibility of falling in love
moonlit looks and starry dances
i let them both fade
i wallow in my pain
finding futility in the things around me
where warmth is wanted
will i spend my entire life
feeling this haunted?

this is a compilation of demos and sounds that i have recorded since i have started working on making lofi music in late 2016. these are the writings, recordings, and scrappings of audio that never quite found a home in my various projects that i plan to release. i sincerely hope you enjoy. thank you for listening. <3

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released September 13, 2019

the guitar line featured on "it will last forever" was written and performed by jack r.

all songs recorded and produced by star student

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